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I just finished listening to the Beastie Boys Book which is great. Lots of good behind the scenes of album and personality making and a fun cast of narrators and a great bit where either Adam Horovitz or Mike Diamond will be saying something and the other one will pop in to correct/argue/say something smart-assy. I am also reading Thurston Moore’s memoir and Crystal is reading a Keith Haring biography and if you ever need two people on tap for Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon, we’re here for you.

Because I’d been listening to the book, I have also been listening to the Beastie Boys’ discography more than I ever have before. I would say I was a casual listener and will probably only continue to be one, but I have enjoyed sort of listening through/putting on a song when they’re done talking about it so that I can appreciate what they said about it and there are just some real bangers in there! A lot of it reminds me of my childhood/adolescence but not in a way that would (for some people) make them feel ~cringe or whatever, but I also think I have a better appreciation of them as distinct personalities.

I’ve also been listening to a lot of Vera Sola and My Brightest Diamond and St. Vincent and Ocean LeClair and JOLENE which has also been very enjoyable. Last year I listened to one new song a day, emulating one of my oldest internet friends, but I found that it inexplicably stressed me out and made me feel like I was listening to less new-to-me music, so it’s nice to be back to my old ways, bumbling and bumping my way into new sounds.

As previously mentioned, I watched the Lord of the Rings trilogy which was a much better time than I expected and I do feel like I could be really obsessed with it under the right circumstances. I’m glad I waited so long to watch it though because I am no longer an irony poisoned jerkwad so I could actually really appreciate it.

I think that’s it! I feel like everyone I know is kind of operating with their brain partitioned — a piece for the nonstop onslaught of dumb and terrifying shit going on in the US and the world at large, a piece for work, a piece for interpersonal stuff, a piece for escape — and it’s a little exhausting and a lot demoralizing, so I hope you’re finding ways to take care of yourself through it.

tunesday: february 2025

a square image of four blurry people with their eyes crossed out with black bars and february 2025 handwritten between them in red, one person is wearing a cat eared beanie and holding a red solo cup turned away from the camera, another is open-mouthed, the other two are hugging and laughing in the background, the photo was taken in february 2005 in ash's college apartment in san bernardino, ca

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January has been a mixed bag already (as they kind of always seem to be? What’s that about!) with some great success working on my resolutions etc whilst watching the only place I have ever truly thought of as home suffer through horrific fires and loss.

First, some music:

Mabe Fratti’s Sentir Que No Sabes which is kind of like a very current Rasputina that I can only a third understand.

Doechii’s Alligator Bites Never Heal which of course everyone knows is a banger and has been listening to before I got to it.

I’ve also been obsessively re-listening to International Pop Overthrow by Material Issue ever since “Very First Lie” came on shuffle a couple weeks ago. What an album.

Second, some reading:

I’ve still been enjoying The Mountain in the Sea and I am suffering through This Will Be Funny Someday by Katie Henry on audiobook which is kind of a learning exercise for me, re: learning to hear things while my hands are busy which is going better than I expected! I also read and loved Navigating With You by Jeremy Whitley.

Third, some watching:

I finally watched The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings and I had a really fun time! For reasons previously detailed I did not think this would be my thing at all, but now that I am old and have a more open heart, it turns out it was.

Finally, some other stuff:

If you’re able, some places to donate: the Anti-Recidivism Coalition – you can include ‘firefighter fund’ in the payment box to ensure it goes to the incarcerated people who are fighting fires in LA and any of these compiled GoFundMes which are specifically for Black families in Altadena and eSims for Gaza.

If you’re unable to donate more than your time, this video tells you how to report landlords who are illegally raising rent prices in the wake of the fires.

Alright, I hope you’re doing well out there! I hope you’re succeeding at the resolutions and goals that really matter and ditching the ones that don’t. Don’t do shit you don’t want to do just because you feel like you should. Life’s way too fucking short.

tunesday: january 2025

a square image of two blurry and double-exposed people with their eyes crossed out with black bars and january 2025 handwritten between them, they are crystal and kelly and the photo was taken in january 2008 in the alley behind the hotel cafe in los angeles, california

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a picture of ash as a baby in a walker with their tongue hanging out and a potted pothos nearby

As a kid, instead of being normal and hanging out in the toy aisle at the grocery store while my parents shopped, I would camp out in the school/office supplies ogling all the pens and markers (and usually managing to go home with something new). As an adult, nothing has changed! Though I guess I do it mostly virtually now. I love stationery and I am always convinced that this new pen will be the perfect one, the one I’ll buy over and over again for the rest of my life. It never is, but I have a ball with the process anyway. On the eternal search for highlighters that won’t bleed through my Moleskine planner pages, I recently grabbed these Sharpie S-Note markers and I like them a lot! They work in my planner great and they’re saturated enough to write with and they’re also excellent in the one coloring book I own and use maybe once a quarter. Highly recommend.

My Spotify wrapped was atrocious so I won’t bother you with any of that (This is what happens when you fire all your people! You need human people to make things that are worth human time!) but it was nice to see that I listened to the Decemberists as much as I thought I did and I’ve been listening to my top songs for the year a lot despite the lackluster wrap-up. Anyway! Other stuff I’ve been listening to a lot: Boys Go To Jupiter’s “Virginia,” All Saints, “Never Ever,” Beach Weather, “Seth Cohen,” and a lot of Daft Punk.

I haven’t read anything I loved in fooooooooreeeeeeeeeeverrrrrrrrr which sucks, but I’m having an okay time with Ray Nayler’s The Mountain in the Sea, so fingers crossed!

Okay, that’s it! Happy holidays! I hope you have exactly as much fun as you can handle and an excellent new year. We can make it through this (and that and the next thing) together. <3